As I looked back to what I had gone through before and during my birthday, I realise the gift that God had for me this birthday.

On the 8^th November, my mum revealed to me every single detail that had been happening at home, between her and my dad. With this, it had definitely brought me through a time of emotional downfall (if that is the word to use).

Nearly a month later, on the 29^th November, with a song that was sung by my brother that ministered to my heart, I gradually walked out of the “darkness” that I was in. I tried, time and time again at that one month period, to not think about the situation at home and focus, but it was hard. Really hard. It was frustrating, confusing, tiring, stressful and whatever other terms that you could use to describe it. But I managed to pull through this period of time.

On my birthday when both of my parents get to meet one another, it began with a time of awkwardness. This went on till it was time for me to go for church service.

When my parents picked me up after service at CCK, they were talking to one another as though none of the things had happened a month before. The cold war, the silence, the unhappiness, seemed to have all vanished into thin air.

The next day after my birthday, they remained this manner. This indicated to me that life was going to be like before. But is it going to be?

Through all these, I have learnt that things come in your way, there is a higher purpose for everything that happens. I have became a stronger person when I’m faced with different difficult circumstances and I wouldn’t be responsive to them, instead, I would be able to face them with a clear mind and head. This situation at home, has allowed me to learn the meaning of reflecting on the situation and respond accordingly. At times, things seem so tough that I was on the verge of giving up, but I had friends who would tell me that “you let go ah~ gor gonna kill you”. This had managed to spur me on, trying my best to hang on, trying my best not to let go.

Through all these, I was also able to relate better with people who are facing similar situations as me, to be able to comfort my friends who are going through things that seems to be as tough as mine. I have also learnt not to let go of things that are most important to me. There are things that I have to cherish: friendships that are worth treasuring, family and different circumstances that God has put me through. Kenvin ever said that “that situation is happening to you because he knows that you could handle it”. I found it true. If God hasn’t allowed something to happen, it will never happen to you. If God knows that you couldn’t handle it, He wouldn’t put you to it. Since he had put you to it, he will bring you through it. Trust in God; learn to open up to my brothers and sisters in Christ, to allow them to spur you on and walk this journey alongside with you.