There are a few things that troubles my heart recently. Despite getting a good grade for my English O Level Examination, which was a B4, I felt that there are more to things in life. Previously, I couldn’t identify them but after the service on Saturday, I started to realise the importance of these thoughts of mine, that they weren’t just random thoughts but they were valid and probable thoughts.

1. Missions trips

Mission trip, is one that I desire to go for ever since I heard of it. I had wanted to be equipped and go forth as someone who could apply the things that I have learnt to help those people in other countries and even nations. But the question is: Should I? If so, what do I do? Where should I go? What is my next step?

2. My Course

It dawned upon me that with a B4 result in my English, I had more choices to choose from. I could even apply for the change of course in Republic Polytechnic. I could apply from programme chair to programme chair to go for Biomedical Sciences rather than Pharmaceutical Sciences. The case now, is that it would be still alright if I were to change my course now, but I have to make the decision before the next semester starts as when the next semester starts, we would be doing different modules for different course in SAS. But the question is: Should I? If so, why? Why did God close the door once for me and now reopen it again? It doesn’t make sense for Him to open the door of Pharmaceutical Science for me then and close all other doors and now come to me and tell me to walk through another door. It just doesn’t make sense. Is this the path that he had asked me to walk? I am contented where I am but is where I am the place that He wants me to be in? What is His path for me? I can have a lot of dreams but what are His plans for me? I wish to walk in His path, to allow Him to have His plans for me, but is this truly the way that He wants me to take? Is this the pathway He has called me to?

3. Camps and Field trips

Throughout my year in RP, there are a number of service learning trip that are coming up especially recently. There have been a lot of trips that I could go for and I have one that is coming up and that my mum had allowed me to go for. When the announcement for the camp came, the first instinct of mine was “I WANT TO GO!!” But prior to that, I am asking myself this question: Is this too much for my parents to bear? I want to go for a lot of activities and trips but the finance comes to the picture. Could my parents afford to let me go for so many trips this year? Apart from my daily expenses, school fees and even other things that I need and want, is there additional amount from there that I could use or even spend on?

4. A Levels General Paper

With my great O Level English result, my mum thought that it was a great decision that I went to British Council to study for my English and even get tuition from there. She even suggested that I go for the General Paper course that is offered by the British Council. There are a lot of things that I’m concerned about. First, schedule. With my tight schedule in school and my high level of commitment to the activities in school, there are certain things or even quite a number of things that I would have to give up on if I were to go for these lessons. Do I want to do that? Second, requirement. I know that I should go for these lessons and take A Level General Paper. But, is it worth my time?